So it's two weeks into the new year and I haven't blogged yet. I feel like our lives have settled into a routine, which means that trying to blog about it on a weekly basis seems BORING. Yet I compiled our blogs into blog books for Christmas and I realized I *used* to be able to write interesting things.
But the more children I've had, the less brain capacity I've retained, it seems. And I don't want to bore you with our mundane complaints--the drafty house that really could use a complete remodel (or while we're at it, how about razing it entirely and restarting from the foundation up? And putting in adequate insulation? That would be REALLY nice), my inability to focus on running the house AND start homeschooling/potty training TJ (Yep. He's three and not potty trained. I may wait until he's 5, just to see if he'll figure it out himself. (Not really.)), or the budget that refuses to cooperate with me on a monthly basis (darn you, tempting Christmas clearances!).
But you know what? The year is new, I have goals to set (obviously), and there is always the gospel of Jesus Christ to buoy me up. I don't have to do it all--I just have to do things one at a time, and let the Spirit guide me to the important things, like an impromptu game of catch or chasing Ella around the house while crawling on all fours or reading a chapter from Ella Enchanted to the girls just before bed. And at least I have a few things figured out, like how to make a good loaf of bread or how to keep the house comfortably clean. I just have to build on what I know.
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Children become the only thing in your life. They truly do. And I don't say this with rancor or frustration or weariness. They are the single most creative project you will ever embark upon. And it takes years to work all the detail in, to form this part and work over that part. It's work, and it's fascinating work, but it makes you really, really tired. Just don't be frustrated with it. If you write a book and get it published - to great reviews and pretty good sales, in the end, it will fade and nobody will remember it. If you turn out a great human being, the impact on the world may not make you famous, but it will be a real impact that will reverberate and resonate for generations. And when you're old, having your book on the shelf is nice - it almost proves you were once real. But having a child still love you and want to talk to you and respect your perspective and be there to help you and others? THAT is something worth having done.
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